Oh my! Today was my first day of work! I got the gas station job. Its a lot of more tiring activites than you think, but its not that bad. A lot of cleaning and memorizing and dealing with trashy Sullivan people but its MONEY. Alex got a job working 6 days a week so i dont see or talk to him much, but are relationship is strong and i feel secure in his love and i am so happy that i have Savannah and Alex in my life and i know sacrafices must be made if were all going to be a family one day :-) Sunday hes taking us to chuckee cheese ! things are hard, but my out look is majorly improved. ive never been so in love with a boy who makes me feel so good and secure. hes a sweetheart! ive been so depressed and i hope i stay feeling happy. i need a little sunshine :-)

Where do i begin? ugh. My boyfriend is a sweetheart. He took me to a cardinals game (my first game ever) and it was so much fun. He even let me listen to Justin bieber ! He did no inherit his thoughtfulness from his father though. No, his father is a monster. He sent Alex this long horrible EMail about how he is offended i have pictures on fb of him with my daughter at the zoo or some shit. Im like seriously? grow up, let him be happy. He continues to say how Im making alexs life harder and how how no one cares about alexs future except for him. Well dude, if it wasn’t for this baggage here, your son would be out smoking weed and getting drunk. But instead he’s responsible, sweet to a child who isn’t use to male kindness and he showed a girl that not all guys are the same. His dad called him arrogant and spoiled. He doesn’t even know his own son if he can call him such things! he says he’s cutting Alex off financialy. He’s 18 and about to go to college. This guys a real DICK. Alex has no responsibility when it comes to savannah. He’s never asked to buy things she needs nor does she think he’s her father. I know this has turned into a rant but it blows my mind how people are so quick to judge and hate someone they have never met! especially a harmless, sweet child! Grow up ya old fart ! damn ! i love him and he loves me. I want to marry him one day and fall asleep by him every night and wake up to him every morning. I want to see his smile everyday and hear him say I love you. This guy is dumb. You can’t tell a teen who to love, it only makes them rebell more. Someone needs to read romeo and juilet..

My bf is deff crossing some lines. He had to sneek to come see me! He told his dad he was with a guy, and then he could barely stay so his dad wouldn’t figure it out. HELLO, but that’s rude. He’s making me feel like trash, like a dirty secret. My daughters pic is usualy in his truck and the coward took it out. If v was older and could comphrend his shame, id kill him. when you love someone you stand up and defend not back down like a balless sack of scum. Alex is a naive teenage. Hes quite faithful and never makes me wonder where he is and never yells or demeans me, but not really seeing or talking to me for two weeks and expecting me to pick up where we left off, is alot. I think for this one he owes savannah a trip to the zoo and fifteen min of her fav Justin beiber song. As for me, i just want him to straighten up, and i deff wouldn’t say no to any presents lol. Ugh. Teen boys.

im a mix of emotions. today my uncle died. i was suppose to go see him tonight but now i obviously can’t. stupid cancer. a goodbye isn’t something you can do when you loose your chance. ugh. goodbyes suck. my bf, my best friend, is leaving at the end of the summer for stupid college. i will hardly see him! he’s the best guyci know. sure he could be a little more romantic and charming but he’s REAL and HONEST and LOYAL and DEPENDABLE. i didn’t know guys could treat me right until i met him. and now hes LEAVING me? i don’t feel like i can face the world with out him. what happens when he becomes busy with his own life and realizes he can do so much better than me? im just numb right now. goodbyes are the hardest.